So many rumour about us
And i knew they talked about us behind
There's nothing i could do
Cause there's nothing between us

I dont know if you still had the feeling
Your unspoken words to me

22 years old

 

I dont really like to celebrate birthday honestly but i'm always like people who celebrate my birthday with me. They make time to send wishes birthday to me, buying cakes and planning a surprise party for me.

I knew times goes flies and some people kinda sick of birthday event now (me too) but my friends keep consistent doing same thing every years. I thought I didnt derseve their loves.

If i had sister or brother

Its already november which one my birthday month. I was born on 30 november and my mom named me Novi. I'm always saying like if i born one day later then my name would be Desi.

I remember last year my friend asked me what thing i want given. I was like 'adek' and my friend was telling me how crazy am I. (Yeah i was).

How i see my self as an INFP

Beberapa hari yang lalu aku iseng-iseng download dan cobain aplikasi test personality (MBTI). Buat yang nggak tahu apa itu MBTI ini penjelasan singkatnya :

"The Myers-Briggs Type Indicator is an assessment that is believed to measure psychological preferences in how people perceive the world and make decisions.  According to the Myers-Briggs test, there are 16 different types of personalities. The test consists of a series of questions, and your answers determine what type of personality you have and provides general assumptions about how your personality type is best suited for success in terms of careers, communication, etc."

Sebenarnya aku udah pernah cobain tes ini sebelumnya tapi karna keisengan + curiosity mana tahu hasilnya bisa berubah sewaktu-waktu kan. Ya, basic on quote kalau people’s change like a season? Tapi hasilnya menunjukkan kalau aku masih seorang INFP. Aku nggak tahu it is good thing or not? But anyway, katanya populasi INFP di dunia cuma 4% jadi mungkin aku termasuk orang dengan kepribadian yang unik? LOL

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Taylor's reputasion album gonna out this 11 nov and I m SO SO excited hearing her new song. Tay already released four song before. 'Look what you make me do' her first song that made everyone got chill. When 'Ready for it' released i tell my friend that i loved that one than LWYMD then 'gorgeous got released and i thought oh my god i really love this new one. I was falling in love with ocean blue eyes man too (Read : Joe Alwyn)

And now for three days in row i keep hearing 'call it what you want'
How lucky taylor with her new boyfriend. I hope she will have a longlast relationship.

So, this song i m talking about
The lyric really hit me hard

Bonus. . .
Forgive my melancholy feeling lately

A great big world - Where does the time go

Melancholy

I been so down lately

All schedule included worklife and idea being graduated made me felt so melancholy

I'm just thinking i dont want to keep all these good memories by photograph

I want to freeze time and living it forever.

Or as long as i could

I thought about my self that i keep losing track

I keep thinking people that i loved tried to live on different world

A new world without my self and i am not happy about it

A goodbye.
I knew i m kind of person get attached to people too easily

And it was not good but i could not help it

I m telling my self that i ma feel okay

Its just my endless overthinking mind

People always leave you but you always had chance to reach them

You just need to be a liitle faster and hold on your pride

Review : 13 Reason Why - Jay Asher

Its been a while since the last time i updated my blog and a very long time since last time i write review for a book.

So here am I again

Collecting the pieces of mine who writing when had the mood

Writing. Review. A. Book.

Another Short Trip : Bukit Tinggi

I think this trip to prove that we can traveling anytime even we had not so much time.

And I love traveling cause we can make friends of strangers and tell stories you never told before. Plus, you dont have to worry they leak it cause they're strangers.

No media social anymore

I'm trying to stop using sns for a while

I realize that I’m using sns for the rest of my day

Its being so fun but tiring

I started compare my life with other person

I started judge people from feed that I saw

I became so confused and clueless

I feel like I lose my character

I got negative things so easily.

Now, I’m trying fix everything

Doing things that I should done before

Focus about what I want to do right now

Flat

I dont know why i being so flat in this beautiful day
I should be happy cause i climb so hard to be here
But its not that I expected
Its was shame that i knew it so late.
I’m always thinking this is not me.
This is not that thing that i want

Quotes said  “There is no time to be give up”
But i dont know how to be fixed
Cant I fix the things? And how?